Hey Everyone,
I am a bit behind this week I have been Job Hunting...one of the worst things ever! haha Seems appropriate for all the reading this week and how we should work to be better not to nag about it, but working sucks! hah I have a love hate relationship with it. Needless to say I have a long way to go with all this stuff. :) The first exercise on loving kindness seemed easy and I did sit for 10 minuets and chant internally my mantra. Difference this week is did I really feel it...Did I really care at the time about the words I was saying, or the effectiveness of it. Nope! I didnt. I have been a bit selfish this week not proud of it, but thats what this is for right. Growth. I at first was very into this integral approach stuff, but im having my doubts now. I agree with most of it, but some of it is difficult for me. Only time will tell I guess.
As for the second part the assessment I HAVE A LOT OF WORK AHEAD OF ME!! I love that though, because I don't like being bored so advancing myself in efforts to improve and help others is a perfect way to pass the time. Also helps me tolerate other humans sometimes. I want to perfect my fitness for myself, promote loving kindness to my family because they are a bit unmotivated for anything and it kind of brings me down. I would rather bring people up than allow them to bring me down. I hate that! To be honest I would like to enhance almost all aspects of the assessment. Not that I am a horrible person or bad at everything, but I just want to be better...at everything. That was the result of my exercise this week.
The things I can do in order to succeed would be enforcing the changes in my life I know will better my attitude sometimes. Approach situations differently as to not let things bother me. Meditate or center myself more often so I can willingly and happily help others. I need a specific one for work though. Haven't figured that one out yet....working on it though. So anyway sorry to be such a drag this week, but my head isnt in the game. To be continued to hopefully a more successful week next time.
I wish you all the best though :)
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Sunday, October 21, 2012
On my way to unity consciousness....
Hi Guys!!
So for me the subtle mind was an easier practice than the loving kindness. I found myself relaxed enough to fall asleep. For me to have a calm enough mind to doze off is good because it seems to never stop for me. I don't sleep solid because my mind is busy. So relaxation to this point is great! On the other hand I dozed off like 3 times in 22 minuets. Haha So this is a problem because I am supposed to be learning how to initiate thought and witness the lack of thought rather than have a blank mind and go to sleep. One day Ill get there I hope. I did find myself, because of the music I think, drifting in a raft with nothing around. No distractions, no thought, no worries just the waves and sound of water. This was nice for me, I wasn't in a panic or worried I was calm and at peace. I guess I am getting the basics of this peace thing, but it will still take much more time and practice for me to fully understand and attain a unity consciousness.
The differences between the loving kindness and subtle mind for me wasn't frustrating, but easier to understand and follow. I think that in order to manifest love in someone else you must first be able to do so within yourself. That being said I think we should practice subtle mind first. It would come easier for us to do the loving kindness exercise if we knew how to manage our thoughts rather than have a busy mind that we don't know how to or haven't even practiced controlling yet.
I believe spiritual wellness is something that you have to learn for yourself. I think in my journey my next step is to learn about religion. All religion, not just the one I was raised to think was right. I want to know all the different types and answer all my uncertainties about it in order for me to make a sound decision. It for me is the same as politics as far as understanding goes. I cant make a vote until I know all sides. I do believe it is necessary to have spiritual wellness in order to be completely happy. We not only need someone or thing we believe in to carry us at times to release that stress too, but we need to know that no matter what there is a plan for us out there that we are in search of. Something were striving to a place of ultimate serenity. The difference between spiritual wellness and physical wellness is that has physical results that you can see, mental wellness has an endorphin rush that you can feel, and the spiritual wellness until you maintain it can be misunderstood or construed to be an illusion or false emotion. In my opinion anyway. I hope everyone that reads this enjoys and as always no one is offended. Good luck to you in your journey as mine is starting to make since and become clear its going to take a while and that I am ok with :)
So for me the subtle mind was an easier practice than the loving kindness. I found myself relaxed enough to fall asleep. For me to have a calm enough mind to doze off is good because it seems to never stop for me. I don't sleep solid because my mind is busy. So relaxation to this point is great! On the other hand I dozed off like 3 times in 22 minuets. Haha So this is a problem because I am supposed to be learning how to initiate thought and witness the lack of thought rather than have a blank mind and go to sleep. One day Ill get there I hope. I did find myself, because of the music I think, drifting in a raft with nothing around. No distractions, no thought, no worries just the waves and sound of water. This was nice for me, I wasn't in a panic or worried I was calm and at peace. I guess I am getting the basics of this peace thing, but it will still take much more time and practice for me to fully understand and attain a unity consciousness.
The differences between the loving kindness and subtle mind for me wasn't frustrating, but easier to understand and follow. I think that in order to manifest love in someone else you must first be able to do so within yourself. That being said I think we should practice subtle mind first. It would come easier for us to do the loving kindness exercise if we knew how to manage our thoughts rather than have a busy mind that we don't know how to or haven't even practiced controlling yet.
I believe spiritual wellness is something that you have to learn for yourself. I think in my journey my next step is to learn about religion. All religion, not just the one I was raised to think was right. I want to know all the different types and answer all my uncertainties about it in order for me to make a sound decision. It for me is the same as politics as far as understanding goes. I cant make a vote until I know all sides. I do believe it is necessary to have spiritual wellness in order to be completely happy. We not only need someone or thing we believe in to carry us at times to release that stress too, but we need to know that no matter what there is a plan for us out there that we are in search of. Something were striving to a place of ultimate serenity. The difference between spiritual wellness and physical wellness is that has physical results that you can see, mental wellness has an endorphin rush that you can feel, and the spiritual wellness until you maintain it can be misunderstood or construed to be an illusion or false emotion. In my opinion anyway. I hope everyone that reads this enjoys and as always no one is offended. Good luck to you in your journey as mine is starting to make since and become clear its going to take a while and that I am ok with :)
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Manifest loving kindness
Hey Everyone,
So this week was the wrap up of my cross country journey. So I am excited to say I am home safe, and very happy to be here. Some unexpected stressors have come up since I got here, but its ok nothing I cant handle. I have felt a little overwhelmed again this week it seems to go back and forth, hopefully now that Im officially home I can do some serious concentrating on my meditation, and happiness.
This all being said the exercise this week was a bit hard. I cant focus on a normal day for like 3 minuets for a relaxation technique much less everyday. I would love to do it in the morning so this next week Im going to try and do this exercise again, because this week it just didn't happen. I tried a few times, but waking up in a hotel with a 4 year old or driving for 12 hours I didn't make time for the exercise like I should have. I do think with more effort this could have been more beneficial, but thats my problem. I am trying to put more effort into all aspects of my life so its gets hard some days. I would recommend practicing the loving kindness to others simply because we need to love ourselves and others so this is a practice that will help you evolve in both areas.
Mental workouts, this coming from me who is a very physical energetic person seemed kind of crazy a few years ago. Then I realized how important it is. To me there are two kinds of mental workouts the ones where we clear our minds and workout in a way of enhancing inner peace (meditation) and then there is the practice of brain games to enhance your "smarts". Both are important, and neither are thought about on a regular basis from most people. Research shows that meditation relaxes your inner self and allows you to retain more information long term. Brain games show that stimulation of the brain on a regular basis refreshes us on what seems like second nature or common sense. You can improve upon these things by making time for them. Its that simple, but also easier said than done. I just got through saying Im too busy changing everything to relax, but still believe I need to slow down. Its just very difficult.
I wish you all success with these techniques and in life :)
So this week was the wrap up of my cross country journey. So I am excited to say I am home safe, and very happy to be here. Some unexpected stressors have come up since I got here, but its ok nothing I cant handle. I have felt a little overwhelmed again this week it seems to go back and forth, hopefully now that Im officially home I can do some serious concentrating on my meditation, and happiness.
This all being said the exercise this week was a bit hard. I cant focus on a normal day for like 3 minuets for a relaxation technique much less everyday. I would love to do it in the morning so this next week Im going to try and do this exercise again, because this week it just didn't happen. I tried a few times, but waking up in a hotel with a 4 year old or driving for 12 hours I didn't make time for the exercise like I should have. I do think with more effort this could have been more beneficial, but thats my problem. I am trying to put more effort into all aspects of my life so its gets hard some days. I would recommend practicing the loving kindness to others simply because we need to love ourselves and others so this is a practice that will help you evolve in both areas.
Mental workouts, this coming from me who is a very physical energetic person seemed kind of crazy a few years ago. Then I realized how important it is. To me there are two kinds of mental workouts the ones where we clear our minds and workout in a way of enhancing inner peace (meditation) and then there is the practice of brain games to enhance your "smarts". Both are important, and neither are thought about on a regular basis from most people. Research shows that meditation relaxes your inner self and allows you to retain more information long term. Brain games show that stimulation of the brain on a regular basis refreshes us on what seems like second nature or common sense. You can improve upon these things by making time for them. Its that simple, but also easier said than done. I just got through saying Im too busy changing everything to relax, but still believe I need to slow down. Its just very difficult.
I wish you all success with these techniques and in life :)
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
You are your own worst critic
Hi!
In the journey this week a lot has happened. I am busy, but not stressed as I was last week. I am officially out of San Diego, and have started my journey cross country. Staying with a few friends hear and there. I have been in Denver since Saturday around 2 am. The drive by myself was long, but I did it and felt accomplished. Since then I have woke up feeling very refreshed and free. Full of excitement. This journey is making it hard to accomplish school work, but I am still doing my best.
While reflecting on myself this week things have drastically changed and I hope to only improve from here. My physical well-being is probably on a 7-8 because I feel like a rock star in the gym and my habits have continued as I am "on vacation" I had the most amazing workout yesterday in a natural red rock amphitheater and that was amazing. Not only was it motivating, but it was so pretty and peaceful. Great time to reflect! My spiritual well-being is on the low end maybe like a 3. I have to spend a lot more time on that in order to feel positive about my spirit. I intend to do a ton of that while in Hawaii in the next year. As far as my psychological well-being I'm sitting in the middle at a 5. I am in a state that is very mixed. I feel very positive about what is coming my way and my growth, but emotional that things have changed so drastically in the last two weeks even.
My goals for each area for the next 3 months is to maintain the good habits I have formed, and enforce new habits to transform my inner state of being. I want to practice meditation or calmness, continue my workout routine when Im home in the south that is a hard one along with eating right. I want to cook more healthy food. I would also like to research spiritual growth, and maybe one day go on a retreat. I need to mold my mind to think more positive. I try now, but I have been doing baby steps. I am ready to dive in!
I must say the relaxation exercise this week was very different!!! I enjoyed it. I felt relaxed. I couldnt control my breathing as I wanted to, because the altitude here in Denver is really messing with my head and lungs, but I did release some of even that tension. My body felt tingly, and Im not tired after. I want to get everything done so I can move on to what is next. I am not perfect at this and have to find my absolute calm place, but I absolutely did better this week than last week.
Here is to wishing us all a better day and week. More confident and positive in your lives. I certainly am practicing a better way and cant wait to share my journey with you next week. :)
In the journey this week a lot has happened. I am busy, but not stressed as I was last week. I am officially out of San Diego, and have started my journey cross country. Staying with a few friends hear and there. I have been in Denver since Saturday around 2 am. The drive by myself was long, but I did it and felt accomplished. Since then I have woke up feeling very refreshed and free. Full of excitement. This journey is making it hard to accomplish school work, but I am still doing my best.
While reflecting on myself this week things have drastically changed and I hope to only improve from here. My physical well-being is probably on a 7-8 because I feel like a rock star in the gym and my habits have continued as I am "on vacation" I had the most amazing workout yesterday in a natural red rock amphitheater and that was amazing. Not only was it motivating, but it was so pretty and peaceful. Great time to reflect! My spiritual well-being is on the low end maybe like a 3. I have to spend a lot more time on that in order to feel positive about my spirit. I intend to do a ton of that while in Hawaii in the next year. As far as my psychological well-being I'm sitting in the middle at a 5. I am in a state that is very mixed. I feel very positive about what is coming my way and my growth, but emotional that things have changed so drastically in the last two weeks even.
My goals for each area for the next 3 months is to maintain the good habits I have formed, and enforce new habits to transform my inner state of being. I want to practice meditation or calmness, continue my workout routine when Im home in the south that is a hard one along with eating right. I want to cook more healthy food. I would also like to research spiritual growth, and maybe one day go on a retreat. I need to mold my mind to think more positive. I try now, but I have been doing baby steps. I am ready to dive in!
I must say the relaxation exercise this week was very different!!! I enjoyed it. I felt relaxed. I couldnt control my breathing as I wanted to, because the altitude here in Denver is really messing with my head and lungs, but I did release some of even that tension. My body felt tingly, and Im not tired after. I want to get everything done so I can move on to what is next. I am not perfect at this and have to find my absolute calm place, but I absolutely did better this week than last week.
Here is to wishing us all a better day and week. More confident and positive in your lives. I certainly am practicing a better way and cant wait to share my journey with you next week. :)
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