Hey Everyone,
I am a bit behind this week I have been Job Hunting...one of the worst things ever! haha Seems appropriate for all the reading this week and how we should work to be better not to nag about it, but working sucks! hah I have a love hate relationship with it. Needless to say I have a long way to go with all this stuff. :) The first exercise on loving kindness seemed easy and I did sit for 10 minuets and chant internally my mantra. Difference this week is did I really feel it...Did I really care at the time about the words I was saying, or the effectiveness of it. Nope! I didnt. I have been a bit selfish this week not proud of it, but thats what this is for right. Growth. I at first was very into this integral approach stuff, but im having my doubts now. I agree with most of it, but some of it is difficult for me. Only time will tell I guess.
As for the second part the assessment I HAVE A LOT OF WORK AHEAD OF ME!! I love that though, because I don't like being bored so advancing myself in efforts to improve and help others is a perfect way to pass the time. Also helps me tolerate other humans sometimes. I want to perfect my fitness for myself, promote loving kindness to my family because they are a bit unmotivated for anything and it kind of brings me down. I would rather bring people up than allow them to bring me down. I hate that! To be honest I would like to enhance almost all aspects of the assessment. Not that I am a horrible person or bad at everything, but I just want to be better...at everything. That was the result of my exercise this week.
The things I can do in order to succeed would be enforcing the changes in my life I know will better my attitude sometimes. Approach situations differently as to not let things bother me. Meditate or center myself more often so I can willingly and happily help others. I need a specific one for work though. Haven't figured that one out yet....working on it though. So anyway sorry to be such a drag this week, but my head isnt in the game. To be continued to hopefully a more successful week next time.
I wish you all the best though :)
Hi Jamie,
ReplyDeleteAs I was reading your post, I thought how energetic you are. That is great. Good luck to you on the job search, that you find something that you really want to do.
I too am finding that doing meditation is helping me improve my stress level and as you say tolerate other humans :). It can be hard to not have someone bring youd down, but I have found that if you can just push those negative feelings aside they will not get to you or bring you down.
Stacey Clark