On my way to unity consciousness....

Hi Guys!!

So for me the subtle mind was an easier practice than the loving kindness. I found myself relaxed enough to fall asleep. For me to have a calm enough mind to doze off is good because it seems to never stop for me. I don't sleep solid because my mind is busy. So relaxation to this point is great! On the other hand I dozed off like 3 times in 22 minuets. Haha So this is a problem because I am supposed to be learning how to initiate thought and witness the lack of thought rather than have a blank mind and go to sleep. One day Ill get there I hope. I did find myself, because of the music I think, drifting in a raft with nothing around. No distractions, no thought,  no worries just the waves and sound of water. This was nice for me, I wasn't in a panic or worried I was calm and at peace. I guess I am getting the basics of this peace thing, but it will still take much more time and practice for me to fully understand and attain a unity consciousness.

The differences between the loving kindness and subtle mind for me wasn't frustrating, but easier to understand and follow. I think that in order to manifest love in someone else you must first be able to do so within yourself. That being said I think we should practice subtle mind first. It would come easier for us to do the loving kindness exercise if we knew how to manage our thoughts rather than have a busy mind that we don't know how to or haven't even practiced controlling yet.

I believe spiritual wellness is something that you have to learn for yourself. I think in my journey my next step is to learn about religion. All religion, not just the one I was raised to think was right. I want to know all the different types and answer all my uncertainties about it in order for me to make a sound decision. It for me is the same as politics as far as understanding goes. I cant make a vote until I know all sides. I do believe it is necessary to have spiritual wellness in order to be completely happy. We not only need someone or thing we believe in to carry us at times to release that stress too, but we need to know that no matter what there is a plan for us out there that we are in search of. Something were striving to a place of ultimate serenity.  The difference between spiritual wellness and physical wellness is that has physical results that you can see, mental wellness has an endorphin rush that you can feel, and the spiritual wellness until you maintain it can be misunderstood or construed to be an illusion or false emotion. In my opinion anyway. I hope everyone that reads this enjoys and as always no one is offended. Good luck to you in your journey as mine is starting to make since and become clear its going to take a while and that I am ok with :)